For years I was weighed down in my service
By emotions, my own and those of others
By accusations, frustration and assumptions
By defensiveness and rigidity
I was sharing recently how grateful I am now
For encouragement and accompaniment
For ownership and consultation
For collaboration and flexibility
That I used to cry under the pressure of it all
To carry the responsibility of everything on my shoulders
To think I wasn't allowed to ask for help or assistance
To feel utterly alone and unsupported
I was asked, "but was that just your perception?"
Yes of course it was my perception
Yes of course my actions were dictated by my feelings and thoughts
But does that make them any less valid?
