Waiting

Too many decisions to make
Anymore and my heart will break
Waiting and longing but dreading the reply
Longing to discuss this agony but afraid to cry
What do I do if they say no?
My dreams dashed, where will I go
I can’t stand this ache in my heart
Wondering to where I will depart
Everything is put on hold
But waiting is making my blood turn cold
I’m so scared of the future it’s making me sick
If they say no, where will I pick
At the moment my deepest fear
Is that I won’t be allowed to escape next year
What will happen if I’m forced to stay here?
Freedom escaping when it came so near
I’m so afraid, I can’t even cry
Time is slipping away, and as yet no reply